Damaged

There was a girl …she was happy to welcome her dad from work, and wake up really early, sneak behind him five am before he left …… and she was thinking he 'll never be gone . But one day without warning he did leave. Life just kept on going, nothing really stopped, if his heart stopped beating, only a handful of other hearts took notice. He s not even in her dreams any more and she get upset with him for that, once in a while.... but anger won't bring him back....

Death is not 

the greatest loss in life. 

The greatest loss is

what dies inside us

while we live......

 I look around. A sad crowd , and I m in it, posing perfect life on Insta.... dreaming of a perfect world that was never meant to be so anyway.  We are not. We are flawed, we are weak and we need love in and out , no matter how much we pretend. I am searching for the meaning of being alive  and being here. A reason to hold on to , and not for anyone else, but for me.  but if that one other person helps you justify it, be truly and fully happy with that, as we all need a reason. And still, I keep on looking, ready to find more, ready to be surprised. Because we want more of anything we know of, and life is one.
Life is not meant to be pink, and we are not made to be whatever the definition of perfect is. You meant to have the clouds to smile to the sunshine, and the wrinkles to show for it.   A constant fight against the wind, with thorn feathers and healing scars. We have no say on what is gone, regardless we were part of it. The future does not exist either. But we are given a chance, a chance to make it  We have a try at that with every breath, with every morning new.  Day by day, one step at a time, and one more, and one breath followed by the next,, sights with pains and sores. And smiles and laughter are to be treasured. Do not take them for granted, for is a blessing to be smiling. Many people can't find one reason to...

We are flesh, and that changes, but what can live a little longer, is our souls. We become memory to the ones that we met ,but we can live in such a way , that we can hope bring a smile to dear one when remembering us, and that is really all we can do to make this struggle worth it.  Make it so they can talk of you for another few years, so you see from up there that you were not as insignificant as you can be. 

That girl cries today again ... and know she'll cry again , give it some time. You always had a kind word for everyone, and you were given such painful way to leave us...if there's any justice in it, this girl can' t see it. I only hope your pain is gone and you found  your peace. I 'll remember you with a smile. Smile back !