November

I am a fish in a bowl
I squint at the air but cannot jump 

Out of myself. out of this hell 

And if i scream you chose not to hear me 

nothing would help. And you won t 

I ll have to erase that night of November 

It all went so wrong. Don t wanna remember 

"Forget it " i command to a heart with no ears 

"This wasn't t your war even poor dear"

You got me to fight someone else's fear 

Why have i ever thought this was for real 

Where is my dou. Give me back my dou 

Is not me that you mean to be mean to 

And i miss the one i thought its all that 

deserving your gold for such a smart act 

I now need to get your words out of my mind 

" all i want is for us to be fine" 

I m here alone and put up a smile 

The saddest of souls in me left to hide 

Don t cry pretty girl please get up 

You already got pain say things it should NOT 

stand tall....you re SO better without