This morning I got to think about friends… I have a few… how good
and genuine friends they are to me, only God knows. I personally like them all
and don’t make much difference. My feelings are real and I m open to a laugh
with each and all of them. And I can honestly say I don’t remember to have once
given a consciously bad intentioned advice. I advise my friend as I feel would
be good for me in their situation. I m thinking of their good, not what they
might want to hear. This is what I call friendship. (now be aware, some people can't take it....) Usually for my birthday, and I did it again this year,would go out twice,for lunch, than night out,try celebrate with as many friends as I can. I sure had a good
time. I love all my girls. Most I know since I m here in Ireland
A is one of my favorite, and so was N. (oh yeah you noticed the "was") They both seem to me to hold on to a secret, if not the same one. (well, time shows you stuff, it sure showed me a thing or two....) A wished me that I m more mysterious and get a good man for myself. Sometimes I do wonder if the first part of her wish conditions the second, as she thinks. I do agree I m easy to read. But I m also hard to read. Because when people see the real you, they still try to read something that’s not there in what they see, as they somehow assume there should be.
A is one of my favorite, and so was N. (oh yeah you noticed the "was") They both seem to me to hold on to a secret, if not the same one. (well, time shows you stuff, it sure showed me a thing or two....) A wished me that I m more mysterious and get a good man for myself. Sometimes I do wonder if the first part of her wish conditions the second, as she thinks. I do agree I m easy to read. But I m also hard to read. Because when people see the real you, they still try to read something that’s not there in what they see, as they somehow assume there should be.
L is like the moon, I don't always see her, but I know she s there for me....and miss me at least as much as I do. And than there's M, and A, and I, and R, and C : I love you all, my dear friends.
In a letter I sent to a
friend recently I was complaining over the fact that in a world full of
thieves, we simply don’t believe in honesty anymore. How sad is that! And if we
by accident get to meet it, we still remain so skeptical. It’s true for you and
God forgive me, for me too. As an Islamic benedictory prayer says- got this
right now out from one of books I m reading, so it’s not me, I m not SO smart “ O Lord, grant that we
perceive truth as true, and the good fortune to follow it; and that we perceive
falsehood as false, and the good fortune to avoid it”. In my case, I know is
the curse that I have on me: a duality within me, always questioning
everything, and only rarely going for what my intuition tells me, and when I listen to, I am right!! We all need to be listening more in these
times full of bogus and get in touch to our hearts. Is the only way to discover
ourselves and the meaning of being here.
I laugh a lot and I take it all with a pinch of salt. I laugh
at life. But the real I is somewhat sad. Sad for all the things I did not do, all the
places I did not see, all the songs I did not heard. It just struck me: this
book (I m writing) may long wait to be finished… thought it will be easy, but no, anything
worthwhile – as I would like my book to be- takes time and effort. And I m
restless this morning, wish I wrote more, but I have to get out of the house, for some reason…be back soon again on the subject of friends.....Because a lot like love, friendship is complicated ;)
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