Thursday, November 7, 2013

A writer is a person for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people.

A ha ha I got to realize it very soon. I am new to this business...of writing. And I still have loads to learn about, you know, the tricks of the trade. (and others)  But I started quite "well"... for examples I learned already that writing about people you know is a big NO NO. You can sure write about things you know, but not people !  Hmmmmm, it sounds tricky, well guess what, it really is.
Politics and diplomacy were never on my list of skills, when I care. Its like this: how do you show you care, if you don't make a big deal about it? The world is full of people who don't give a damn. We all might know someone in quite a bad situation,and of course most of us would choose not to interfere: "their life, their business" . I  just can't keep quiet. For example, someone told me she was witnessing child abuse in more than one occasion, but she could not bring herself to report it to the authorities, because the parents were relatives and they would have never spoken to her again. How could she do that, is beyond me. I would report such a case, if the abuser was my own blood. Nothing could stop me from reacting to this.  Nothing.
Now, when it comes to friends, I have to stop myself at listening only. Because not everyone who cries on your shoulder welcomes or wants your help. I ve been there. And looking back I know now that I made it through by myself. Crying on someone else's shoulder did not help me much. You still have to be strong for yourself, pick yourself up, let go and move on. Every step toward peace is excruciating, and you do feel alone against the world. You do feel like a scared rabbit in a maze, no signs for directions. You are alone.  That s how I felt. I passed those moments somehow and only wish everybody else finds the strength to do it. Easier said than done.
But than again, I m still learning. I don't know about you , but I usually get to learn the hard way. And I d rather have it like this, not 'cause I like torturing myself, but because at least I get to make a point. I get to roar before learning ha ha . Joke aside, whoever concerned will quickly find that I do learn from my mistakes. Unlike others Sorry, could not help it. Again. As for myself, the friend that I appreciate the most is still that friend that tells it like it is. I prefer the truth over compassion ,cause not seeing the truth its what gets us into misery, to begin with. I do have such a friend, and I ll never give it up for as long as she continues telling me the truth. I will never let go of my real friend. Now when it comes to writing about friends, my good intentions don't matter. So in the future I shall refrain from so much written compassion. And hold my ground quietly. While "writing is not necessarily something to be ashamed of, I still have to do it in private and wash my hands afterwards ". 

to my friend, no matter what 

quotes by Thomas Mann ,Robert A Heinlein, E. Hemingway

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