Friday, March 7, 2014

Look back and smile of perils past /Paris



So here I was all by myself traveling by taxi from the Charles des Gaulle airport to Paris city. I must have been amazed at the wide motorways, at the crazy speed of traffic, had not have been so tired and with nerves in my stomach. The baby kicked me hard, in tune with my mood. I was due any day now, and I could do without all this excitement, I did  not want to have my baby here in this country all by myself. I felt helpless thou and knew I can't just decide against it. I prayed. 

 The taxi ride quite scared me, how long can it possibly take to get to this damn hotel, my mind was screaming, but did not wanted to show the driver how worried I was. I did not realize back than how huge this city is. The taxi eventually dropped me off and I checked in at the reception with my fake passport, trying to behave like I m used to this whole process, like I was doing it every holiday I had. (in fact, I don't think I stayed in such a hotel ever before, with sweets on the coffee table for the guests, with complementary warm croissants and fresh orange juice at breakfast )
The reality was I could as well have been an alien. Out of place with my Romanian cheap clothes, no make up or perfume like everybody around me seemed to wear, and feeling out of my mind too. 
I surely called London that very afternoon from a pay phone in the street not far from the hotel.  I talked to R about everything that happened in the airport. And he advised me to just get sleep, rest and not think too much about next day. I was about to board the plane to London second day in the morning and be with my husband in less than 24 hours. And I was happy. I was exhausted but felt a lot better after talking to him, thinking I have a ticket and I shall make it this time.
I was on my own in Paris.... did not returned straight back to the hotel, I went wondering the streets. It was the very last few days of September, and the weather was beautiful. Warm and the sun lingered on the horizon for what seemed hours. The multitude of people and lights in this city was fascinating me. After getting really dark I decided I should go back to the hotel...


Still, that night I barely slept a full hour. 



more sleepless night will follow thou...

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