Saturday, November 9, 2013

a lot of wishful thinking and a lot of struggle

While an avid reader, and a books lover, my memory is the worst imaginable. I m enjoying books since I was second class in primary school, 8 years old and learn to read. If I remember right my first ever book, from my school library, was Peter Pan. Needless to add I don’t remember a thing about it, and any idea that I might have on Peter Pan is from my afterwards gained knowledge. But at the time I was immersed in the book, read it in a day and remember mum screaming to help her with the house chores, and me NOT hearing her...I was living IN the book 

I m an optimistic person, always, no matter what I m going through in life. Me attempting to write anything is pure proof, as "the act of writing is an act of optimism. You would not take the trouble to do it if you felt it didn't matter" ( Edward Albee ) well, it matters to me, even if for the moment I write a lot about writing. I m only getting warm. 

And maybe I don’t need to be a writer in the traditional sense. I mean what’s the traditional sense? Nowadays each of us makes his own rules, and once you got yourself a group of readers that really enjoy your story and pass it along, it matters. Is not as it used to be: nobody has the time to wait to die than get famous as most of the classics did. We damn want and chase fame as early as the first typed line in our laptop

Maybe each of us has one extraordinary story to tell. I believe in people being unique and full of creative potential. I believe I m one of those people. But I m also seeing so much laziness around me. I mean, it is true, that people are innately lazy. So true!!!  And someone else said, and I m trying hard in fact to listen,that every day we should do something that we don’t want to do. Yes, I m doing it right now. Because as much as I dream of the writer ME,  I would honestly rather listen to one of the music channels than crouch in front of the screen, feeling my back a little and share with you my wisdom   (as if....)     

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